profile.

eve
17
libra
08/10/91

fei
18
aquarius
11/02/90


wishes.

♥ meteor shower
♥ elder brother
♥ visit Bhutan
♥ world peace
♥ eat all we want without growing fat ><

talk.



affiliates.

eric
shuna
marge
tung

archives.

April 2008
May 2008
June 2008
July 2008
October 2008
November 2008
December 2008
January 2009
February 2009
March 2009
April 2009

layout.

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Basecode: increasingly

wheee v long didnt post anything alr hhahha.

uhm. very happening weekend x) sat went to watch wanted.. movie supp to start at 9.20 but delayed until 10.15 cos of "technical fault" but YAY free movie pass planning to watch get smart with it yay x) and its a good thing i live in bishan so i didnt needa cab home and spend 10+ bucks. so the free movie pass is still free hahah.
and omg ks ur hairstyle. ........ x) if u reading this. hahah. ur almost-emo one is much better. nodds. definitely much much better. =.=

sun watched zohan... omg v sick la. e guys got like super excited about it =.= damn grossssssss akhs. waste my money. 6 bucks bian 8+ bucks =.= zzz.

bought present for jas alr x) i'll rmmbr to bring tmr hahah.

hvnt gotten my sleeeeep yettttt omg one of these days im gonna sleep at like 9/10.

ISLE starting to be fun yay x)

okay im just being totally random. have to go do pw nowwwww rawr
ciaoz

i have chosen the best time to be sick =/

how does tt choice relate to opp cost?
it's the most rational choice ever..

CRYYYYY. i so planned to hardcore ecos today ended up doing stuffs that tends to 0.

good luck for CTs XD my luck is the best..

fei

1/2 OF WED THURS FRI SAT SUN CT HOLS CT CT CT KBOX+MOVIE+BRIDGE x)


If you need a place where you can run
If you need a shoulder to cry on
I'll always be your friend

When you need some shelter from the rain
When you need a healer for your pain
I will be there time and time again
When you need someone to love you
Here I am, hmmm

sometimes i wonder if i expect too much. sometimes i wonder if i deserve more than what i'm getting.maybe it's just cos i'm still not used to the culture here, afterall i did spent a good 14 years of my life in indo. but you know, that night i kind of went back on my words,those words i so often repeated to myself, to others."i wanna get out of here, 4 years max, and i don't like the way ppl here live. the way they behave. in general. i'm not gonna be one, and i'm most certainly not gonna marry one."ah, but what do they say about the things you hate the most?
sometimes i still can't believe what i did. but hey, things happen, and i find myself loving someone enough to forget what i've been taught to believe in for the past 15 yrs of my life. ah, my whole future can change, as long as it includes you.
freak, i shouldn't be over-sensitive hahah.


12.06.2008 Friday
________the end.

有些话，不是为了听的人而说。更多的，是为了自己。

所以，一些犹豫不决，需要鼓起勇气才能说的话，即使对他来说只是一股吹过耳边的风，微不足道，也还是要为自己而说。即便无法传达到心中。

请不要再有任何的期待。因为期待和失望中间永远是等号。

我没关系。
最后的短信是我画上的句号。
mugging jiayou!
2 more weeks to the end of CTs :D

fei

わたし　もう大丈夫だよ。そうと思った。
でも、どうして写真を見て　涙がまた溢れてるの。

そんなに近くいた。うまく笑っていた。写真の中で。
写真を　もう見たの？　
バカなぁ　わたし。私のことを　もう　忘れてたかも。

勉強　頑張ってね。
one and half more week to CTs.

welcome back :)

my mum loves tidying up the room too. by that i mean keeping away stuffs on the table into drawers so that i waste my time searching for them later. U_U



I AM BACCCCKKKK I KNOW I'VE BEEN HUGELY MISSED MUAHAHHA.

eh plans plans. ive had enough shopping from hk so i dont wanna go shopping with my mom alr heh. holiday half gone alr T T
and i've only touched econs and nothing else. oops. x)

mmmm my mom "tidying up" my room. i hate it when she does that, seriously. =.=
rawr. the room doesnt need tidying up T T

bleah whatever.

<3 eve

有生命的一切都会发光 有生命的一切都会痛苦

i was wondering if mimi (the cat) will die of solitude one day. it will meow loudly ard the house for no other reason, but company.
...
today went to shuna's palmessage booth at ps from 1 to 6 to accompany her and to have some gal's talk. today was real heaven-lacrima. couldn't really see Singapore flyer cos of the water vapour on the window. and that gives me another stupid link to make.　もう　会えないだろう。

ps gives me a totally new feeling. insect-exhibition still on. butterflies and the giant spider.
this may be immature and stupid but it is truly what i m feeling now. 3 days. 3 weeks. how serious? how deep? stupidity is the word. i know i know i know.
i realized, i carn stay at home alone.



Sunny Day -藤木一恵 「死神の精度」


こぼれ落ちたのは
落下的

涙じゃなく祈る声
不是眼泪，而是祈祷声

見上げていたのは
我所仰望的

雲の上の太阳
是云端上的太阳

眠るように生きていた
我像是睡着一样的活着

いつも弧独だった
一直都是孤独一人

君に出会うその日までは
一直到与你相会的那一天为止

ずっとずっとここで
我一直，一直在这里

ひとりでも歌える
一个人也可以歌唱

愛の歌があるとしても
就算有情歌也可以

ひとりでは探せない
一个人找不到的

両手に触れたこの温もり
是被两手抚摸的这种温暖

仮面を缠えば
带上面具的话，

忘れられる気がしてた
有一种被忘记的感觉

記憶をしまった
我把回忆收起来

箱に键をかけて
把箱子锁上了

あんな暗い場所でさえ
就算是在那么阴暗的地方

君を見つけ出せた
我还是找到你了

戻ることができなくても
就算是无法回头

もっともっと遠く
（我还是回去）更远，更远（的地方）

ひとりきり覚えた
只有我一个人，我还是记起来了

愛の歌があるとしても
就算是情歌（也一样）

ひとりでは届かない
一个人无法传达

ドアの向こうで待つ明日へ
试想朝向等在门后的另一天

ここからもう一度歩き出す
再次从这里走出去

with you...

悲しみを優しさに
我会把哀伤变成温柔

変えてみせるから
我会改变给你看

いつかは必ず
有一天一定会达成

本当の自分を许せたら
如果接纳了真实的自己

痛みも消えてく
痛苦也会消失

きっと
一定会的

ひとりでも歌える
一个人也可以歌唱

愛の歌はもういらない
情歌已不需要

ひとりでは　探せない
一个人找不到的

陽だまりのようなこの温もり
默许一样的这份温暖

君となら探せる
如果和你在一起，一定找得到

見たことのない明日を
就在我没见过的明天

saw the Singapore flyer moving ystd. finally. u have to really stare at it hard and dont blink ur eyes for 1 min as someone said. had been trying to spot its motion since monday but only caught it ystd from the same bus i try to observe from everyday.
is there a reason or just a coincidence? stupid link i am making. it's like the truth reveals. but you saw it all along right from the start, didn't you?
gd luck for sats and enjoy ur ride if u decided to make it the memorable event of ur hols.


cockroach inside the room. i spent 1 whole hour sitting on my bed, hugging my knees, staring at the cat which was glaring at the cockroach. thx to cat (not the cat -.-) my saviour who came down to rescue me ><

it's like you are nearing to falling down but struggle to find the balance to stand back up right. the cockroach is just there to end this struggle earlier. it's like ur heart is nearing its defence limits, and the cockroach just broke down the last brick that can protect it. if only sorrow can flow out of the body like tears.


心の痛みが今よく分かる。

05/06/2008 Thursday.

<('@')>

i miss exoro.

Lacrima

泣きたいなら 泣いたっていいんだよ
想哭的时候就哭吧

その涙の想いを受け止めるよ
这眼泪中的心情可要接住哦

あなたは少し がんばりすぎなのかも 私からはそんな風に見えたよ
从我眼中看到的你，或许有些过于努力了吧

それでも前に進まなくちゃ ならない
即便如此还是不得不勇往直前

そんな時にはどんなに泣いたっていいじゃない
这种时候何不放声大哭呢

明日には乾く涙よ
让眼泪到明天才干


夜の風になって飛んでゆこうか
幻化成夜里的微风

そしてあなたを優しく撫でられたら
吹到你的身边轻轻抚慰你

「泣きたいだけ 泣いたっていいんだよ」そう耳元でささやいて
想哭的话就哭吧,在你耳边轻声诉说

抱きしめたい
好想抱住你

Lacrima lacrima 涙の後には Lacrima lacrima おやすみ おやすみ
Lacrima lacrima 眼泪之后 Lacrima lacrima 晚安 晚安

心の中しまいこんだ想いを 言葉にして言ったっていいんだよ
把束缚在心灵深处的心事说出来吧

弱虫なんて誰も思いやしない あなたは既に充分がんばってるから
没人会把你当成胆小鬼，你已经很努力了

張りつめていた心の糸が 涙となって流れ出た時にほんの少しでも楽になれたら
紧绷的心弦在哭过之后只要有一丝舒展

明日には笑顔が戻るよ
明天笑脸就会回来哦

夜の風になって飛んでゆこうか
幻化成夜里的微风

そしてあなたを優しく撫でられたら
吹到你的身边轻轻抚慰你

「泣きたいだけ 泣いたっていいんだよ」そう耳元でささやいて
想哭的话就哭吧,在你耳边轻声诉说

抱きしめたい
好想抱住你

Lacrima lacrima 涙の後には Lacrima lacrima おやすみ おやすみ
Lacrima lacrima 眼泪之后 Lacrima lacrima 晚安 晚安





どうして泣きないの。

心の寂しさ。

そばにいるのは　みみちゃんだけ。

星空は　初めて悲しい感じがくれた。

こんな私が　嫌いだ。泣きたい弱さが　嫌いだ。

眠れない夜が　嫌いだ。　バカみたいの私が　嫌いだ。

この悲しみが　誰にも　言えない。

彼　きっと　何ても　分からないなぁ。私のことが　全然　気にしないだろう。

だから　忘れてみる。



Another Jodi Picoult quote that i noted down somewhere random..

"Sometimes to get what you want the most, you have to do what you want the least."




hmm so i decided to spend some constructive time reading past blog entries. quite interesting :D but sad to realize that we are half way through J1 ><



U_U one of the days that i carn sit down and do something constructive..not even constructive slacking :( worst kind of feeling: u have time but u donno how to use it and u donno what u want to do and time just ticks by..but when u have a whole list of things u really want to do, u have no time :(

just now i opened the window to look outside/breathe fresh air xD i smelt Indian curry >< lol not so bad la..i am too full to appreciate xD

couldn't sleep ystd night :\ was turning and tossing ard in bed till donno wat time..and i woke up before the alarm rang -.- which is about 7am..not sure how much i slept but i was yawning and yawning during exoro :O ohh exoro!

my memorable event of the hols >< (relative..to mugging or slacking at home T_T)
Team GraFight XD
1st day: 6 out of 8 teams
2nd: 4th out of 10 teams

claps. we improved! xD quite an interesting game overall :D maybe i just dont have the business acumen :(

so when i got home..sth popped up and my mum was complaining to me. when will he grow up? i guess his maturity age can be worse than a P1 kid. (*pls ignore this)

hmmm i feel like taking a walk outside. but walk alone abit sad >< but again, i donno what to do now if i stay at home :S (ehh i am not emoing..)

and yay i finally blogged sth constructive!



A birthday wishlist from jas xD i seriously think u should be a comedian! lol! dont waste ur talent..

hm, i wan practical stuff la, and different stuffs have different criterias one kae!!!!

1) not too ex k, a few hundred bucks can alr~~~ ~~~ XDDD HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA, no la no la, jkjk!!! five dollars per person can alr tt kind~~~ XDDDD

2) if its clothes, buy big ones, if bag, forget it too ex, if jewellery, actually i dun need but you all can buy if you think i need, if stuff toys forget it, =_= cos i've grown outta it XDD or a small one can alr, cos i will get some kinda dust disease if i hug it everyday then i will die and a lot of people will mourn, you dun wan tt to happen HAHAHAHA!!

3) oh i noe i noe, you can buy me a nice NOT SO EX jacket >DDD no need make sure its yellow la, (=_= i think like tt, 1 year after my bday you still havent got it) BUT BUT BUT COOOOOLLLL is an impt criteria. >DDD AHA AHA AHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!! OH OH OH and MUST BE BIG KAE!!!! LARGE SIZE LARGE SIZE!!!!!

4) if you buying me food, dun buy perishables (tho they all perish in the end. eh, wad am i talking abt?!) !!!! XDDD and i prefer QUANTITY TO QUALITY!!!! XDDDDD AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!! oh, but must have a BIT of quality kae!!! as in, if you gimme some weird expired stuff i will kill you. =_________________= like seriously.

5) YOU CAN TREAT ME TO MOVIE~~~~ XDDD YUPPP PPPPP. >DDDD AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!! but moive marathon abit boring leh. =_= unless you gimme a shuai ge then i sit next to the shuai ge for hrs, i dun mind. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!

6) food ar. =____= ah ah~~~ a bit apprehensive now leh, cos i eat eat eat till i sick leh. but see first la see first. if i ok alr, then can treat me lor, on your recommendations. XDD HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!! if its some gaudy restaurants, i will tear them down. =___= (ps: i dun mind fast food, i LOVVEEEE fast food!~~)

7) OH OH OH you can buy me a set of HEAD phones also, cos my organ that headphones JUST nice spoil alr!! AHAHAHAHAHAHA, but you must be careful kae!! must choose the ones with the right electricity plug, if not cannot use then i will bite you. =_=

8) OH OH OH or you can buy me EAR phones >DDD AHAHAHAHAHAHA, cool cool that one!! XDD then i can cycle and look cool without trying to adjust the ear plugs (cos they kept falling off, tho adjusting ear plugs look quite cool also), oHOH, buy those tt dun hurt the ears kae, if i go deaf, i will kill you also. XDDD

9) =_= do you have those kind of automatic-ant-brusher? cos my table ar, ANTS kept popping out you noe. then i have to go squash them one by one, if not they will climb onto my hands, very irritating, help me buy those that can squashed them all at once without me touching them. =____________= tho you sound squashable also. 10) hm hm hm actually nth else, if got some more then i email you. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!! XDD

okok gtg, SEE YAAAAAAA.
-the end-




LOL! have a good laugh! :D esp for those too depressed missing someone :)